Sunday, December 5, 2010

How to Be Sick with Flair

All night long, a fever rages, and I can't keep warm no matter what I do.  I'm coughing so much that I actually lose my voice.  I can't talk on the phone; I can't boss my family around; I can't even go to church and call out my welcomes. 

I try to get out of bed while everyone else is at church, but then I flop back down on the pillow.  I have no energy.  I'm suddenly amazed by how the body takes the energy it needs to get better and forces you to conserve it.  You stay in bed.  You don't move.

I can't stand the lack of productivity.  I actually devise a grand plan with my lost voice.  I can make a vow of silence and pray all day.  How godly!  But when I try to get my Bible and journal, I flop back down on the pillow once more.  Forget it.  I'm too weak.  

I'm worried about how in the world my husband got everybody ready for church and who handled all my responsibilities there.  And I'm worried about who's cooking dinner. 

My family returns from church, and the girls bound into my room like little gazelles leaping about the bed.  Their outfits are adorable, and my husband has actually fixed their hair.  The youngest has the smoothest pony-tail , and their faces are clean and bright.   I can't stop looking at that pony-tail.  For years my husband has announced, "I don't do hair.  I'll do everything else, but I can't do hair."

But he did it. I look again at that hair and realize how God provides, even down to the pony-tail.  And then a friend sends the message that she's bringing hot soup.   I turn over in my blanket and realize my God-given assignment.  Stay in bed.  Don't move.  

There's nothing I can do, so, for once, I learn how to let God provide.

8 comments:

emily-lynne said...

Feel better!

jenny_o said...

So sorry to hear you are sick - hope you feel better soon. Women, especially mothers, are often so used to being caregivers that they forget how to receive care from others. Husbands can be quite good at it when we let them!

As an aside, how on earth did you write such a lovely post when you felt awful? I am lucky to even be able to put two coherent thoughts together when I am sick!

Anonymous said...

I am thankful that God gave you the strength and energy to write this beautiful post today! What a timely reminder of His provision for ALL of our needs. There is often a temptation to believe that all we have and do is because of US. Hope you feel better soon!

Katie

boonstoon said...

Hope you feel better soon.
It's amazing that your post is about being sick today: I've been fighting a fever for two days. Tomorrow will find me at the doctor's office!
Take care.

Dianna
www.thesedaysofmine.com

Mama Abby said...

I loved this Heather! I was sick this weekend too...but so was my hubby...no ponytails yet, but he did/does great!...I'm sure he'll master the ponytail too...

trust you're feeling better as i write this...if not: STAY. IN. BED!!!!

Monster Librarian said...

Feel better Heather! You amaze me--even blogging when you are sick! Praying for your fast recovery. :)

David Rupert said...

And you are still inspired despite the illness...that's perserverance!

Charity said...

So sorry to hear you've been sick, dear friend! I hope you're back to full health soon. (BTW...I've also been impressed with the way my hubby is able to step up and make my little B's hair look really good too.) :)